I used to believe I needed to heal myself before I could become a mother. I thought motherhood was a destination I had to earn, or that I needed to fix parts of myself first to be more prepared, more balanced, more whole. But what I didn’t know then was that motherhood would actually heal me in ways I couldn’t have imagined.
It was the very thing that would teach me how to be present, how to surrender, and how to trust my body in ways I never had before.
I didn’t need to be more…or do more…, I actual needed to do less.
My path to conceiving was not a straightforward one. Fertility challenges as one of the main reasons that I found my way into goddess spirituality, ancestral traditions, and a remembrance of the wisdom that was always there. When I didn’t receive the answers, support, or clarity I was seeking from conventional sources, I turned inward. I stopped demanding my body to create a child and instead started listening to what it needed.
It was in those quiet moments alone with myself and my pain, that felt a strong call to slow down, to step away from the hustle-driven career and lifestyle that had defined so much of my twenties. I began in the subtle places that I knew I could control and have more mindfulness about. Like the food I ate, the places I went, the people I let have access to me. I began noticing when I was too full, too stressed, too accommodating. Bit by bit, I released unhealthy habits and relationships, cut out distractions that were draining me, and embraced a plant-based diet that felt more nourishing rather than restrictive.
I allowed myself time to really lighten up. To get a grip on what and who I directed my emotions and concerns towards. I found peace in the bigger picture, reconnecting with the rhythms of nature, observing the cycles of my own body without pressure or expectation. And in that sacred pause, my body responded.
In 2021, my husband and I recieved the most incredible news the we were pregnant…naturally. I had a beautiful healthy baby boy, and now almost 3 years into motherhood, I see that the real journey was never just about creating life. It was about creating space for more life.
This deepening into presence has shown me that healing is not something we reach for in the future, but it is something we cultivate in the now. And so, I am introducing Sundays in the Soil. This a new weekly email for subscribers of the Golden Goddess Alchemy publication dedicated to soul nourishment and embodied presence.
Just as the earth needs tending before it can bear fruit, so too do our bodies, minds, and spirits need gentle, intentional care to truly thrive.
This spring, our Sunday post will be a reminder for you to weave in more sacred rituals, soul nourishment, and deep reconnection with your body, spirit, and ancestry.
For Sundays in the Soil, we will explore body mindfulness practices, rituals of restoration, and simple, grounding activities that bring us out of the noise of our minds and into the richness of our creation consciousness. Whether it’s movement, breath work, sensory exploration, or honoring the cycles of nature, these Sundays will be a space to root down and reconnect with ourselves, to the divine, and to the soil from which all life grows.
Today, as I complete my commitment to 30 days of daily yoga, I feel immense gratitude. Not just for what my body can do, but for what it has taught me. That I can take my time. That there is no rush. That presence itself is the greatest act of creation.
So as we begin this new Sunday ritual together, I invite you to join me in tending to the soil of your own being. To slow down, to breathe deeply, and to honor where you are. Healing isn’t waiting for you in the future…it is unfolding right here, right now, in every moment you choose to be present.
With love and rooted presence,